i decided i may learn french since me and my family are going to france in a couple of months. i know i have a memory problem but im going to do things slowly and not rush myself. if i learn french, and figure out a good way to study ( not the highschool way) , i think is a much better solution. im going to take 4 words and study 4 flash cards an hour. i wanted to learn spanish but thats the second language i will learn after i go to france since i already am going to mexico as well. i been to a lot of places but i dont remember a lot. my memory is terrible. im very excited about learning french. wi. :)
i hate being so forgetful. i get very aggitated sometimes and just wanna drop everything. stupid memory problem. i take meds and its all my meds fault.
i notice there are times where i feel like i want to run around and skip. playing my piano helps me. but i get depressed while playing it cause i play all old songs which my granfather ( who died several years ago) taught me. when my grandfather passed away, i never cried that much in my life. normally i force myself not to cry. but that time i cried. i dont visit his grave cause i get depressed and i begin to cry. my depression started not only that but many other things that has happened in my life. dont wanna talk about it.
i miss someone right now. i miss this man that i met 6 years ago when i was 20. he was 18 then and i was 20. now hes 22. i wish i could see him again. i miss him terribly.
ugh, i dont know. im hopeless romantic. if i meet him my heart would skip out of my chest, and im afraid of that. im afraid to see him. but i want too.
